This is what freedom looks like…

Vanessa Broers

Written by Vanessa Broers

Before I joined Medicine, Mythical and Unio, my name was Vanessa. To some, it still is. 

Then, it was Venus: Shaman of radiant joy, queen of wild rage.

And it appears the longer you stay on the mythical path, the longer your name gets. 

You can now call me: Venus, Whirling warrior goddess, sacred phoenix heart, rose chalice of sweetness, surrender and celebration of life, criatura de fuego, daughter of the forest, hawk mother.

I am the shaman to the tortured genius superstar and a divine disruptor.

Practically, this means I work with organizations at the executive level to bring sacred spiritual ‘technology’ to the world's leaders in business. They are hiring my partner and I for ‘potential’ and we are healing their inner children and opening them up to the sacred.

I also do sacred money work with my partner, serving as anchors of trust for our clients to create the money that is true for them, supporting them to create it without compromise to soul, self or their values.

I recently went to the same cafe where I met Lian for the first time via video call. An incredibly busy spot in downtown Denver called Denver Central Market.

I sat in a cafeteria style, closely packed tables with people all around me and sobbed for an hour. 

We were meant to be meeting in regards to her being a guest on a podcast season that never aired. By the end of the call, I’d practically demanded the final spot in Waking the Wild Medicine. A journey my soul recognized immediately.

At the time, I was desperately trying to recognize the truth about my then marriage, was absolutely bored, stalled and disenchanted with my coaching business.

And heartbreakingly, achingly lonely.

And I almost forgot (and if you knew me at all then, you’d understand how hilarious it is to have missed this) utterly obsessed with making more money.

I was sure that more money would somehow make it all better. And at the same time, nowhere did my power collapse more than around money itself. 

It is actually impossible to put into words how deeply changed I am by my journey in this sacred work and sacred community. To others I look different, to those who know me, they tell me I’ve turned into a mushroom and to myself, I am both unrecognizable and, yet, finally myself.

I could speak on each of these for an hour each but here are the highlights:

• I am joyful as a baseline. I wake up smiling everyday. No mindset work required. 

• I am separating from my beautiful ex-husband and love him more than I ever have

• I am absolutely financially free - and I don’t have a lot of money right now. I don’t know where the next dollar is going to come from and I genuinely feel like I have a million in the bank

• I spent the first two hours of my day today walking in nature and sitting in a stream with my dog

• I have answered a direct call from the divine to serve corporate executive leaders and celebrities - and while my ego would have drooled over a vision like this in the past, I would have never had the self-recognition to say yes - and approach it with humility

• I have a business partner I couldn’t have dreamed up in my most expansive state

• I am home. I am no longer searching for anything. I am me, I love me, I have found me. 

• And yet, I long endlessly for deeper and more enduring moments of feeling the presence of God in my body, it’s my favorite feeling.

What I am struck by in this moment and what I am journeying with are a few things. 

I spent nearly 18 months in the desert. Not having enough money to pay rent, and sometimes had to choose between putting food on the table for my daughter and gas in the car. And every time, the money appeared. Sometimes later than I wanted, sometimes after I had many challenging and humbling conversations.

Now, I am in the divine co-creation of corporate contracts and humbly serving people that the world knows by name, when I experience myself as completely unknown.

This is challenging me in two very profound ways: 

First, it illuminates quite a vicious part of my wounding that is desperately protecting me through convincing me that I am “a nobody and the world doesn’t want my work” - a narrative that has historically successfully kept me in the literal shadows.

It is calling me into humble service, following divine will and taking me on a radical journey into self-recognition.

The second is that after coming out of the desert and distinctly feeling the call back into service and at much higher levels of money flow, I am consistently pulled into the inner practice of keeping the money as sacred as the work itself.

I have a history of prostituting my soul and gifts for a quick dollar and cheap recognition. 

And as I rise to meet this divine directive, I am relentlessly facing the parts of me that want to sell out, work too hard and abandon my inner child.

To be clear, there is no actual risk of any of those happening. 

But when the progress to the external ‘appears’ slowed down as a result, I recognize each as a moment of opportunity for divine rapture and unconditional trust in myself, God and life. 

A deep, grateful and humble bow to Lian and Jonathan and all of the souls who’ve journeyed with me and will continue to journey with me on this path.

Such deep love, honor and reverence.

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