The path back home💫

By Lian Brook-Tyler

The path back home 💫

The lifelong struggles with being neurodivergent in a modern world that doesn’t understand or welcome differences, the trauma, the scars, the chronic facial pain, the terrifying hallucinations, the shamanic sickness… all of these and more, I’ve made my peace with and received the precious gifts held there.

Walking down the path back home today, I understood that at some point along the way, without even realising it, I’d accepted my hearing loss too.

This is the part of me I’d resisted the most… It felt utterly unfair given the hand I’d already been dealt. I felt isolated, hopeless, frustrated and ashamed. I told almost no-one and instead relied on lip reading, guessing, and the avoidance of certain people and situations.

Today, I saw how the loss of my hearing opened up other senses, especially the ones I thought were the stuff of fairy tales, and then one day taught me about real magic.

Now, thanks to a miracle I asked for that the very same day led to a diagnosis (finally! After 10 years) and then an operation I didn’t know existed, I’m able to hear fairly well from of one of my ears, whilst the other remains deaf (and provides a natural ear defender, which my sensory sensitivity is often grateful for!)

Today, I saw more clearly than ever that it was this very Material for Liberation, all of it, but especially the parts I have battled the most, that have led me, breadcrumb by breadcrumb, on the path back home to myself.

May you find the blessings in the darkest places and discover your way back home too.

All my love,

Lian

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P.S. I talk more about my shamanic sickness in this podcast episode ‘How to journey with shamanic sickness and heed the call as a healer’ with Ramon Castellanos

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