The Sacred Pause
By Lian Brook-Tyler
Today is the first day of my month-long sacred pause… no teaching, no podcasting, no guiding… instead I will be devoted to my family, my home life and my own shamanic practice.
I’m beginning the month by re-reading my teacher, Jez Hughes’ first book.
It feels poignant as the woman I was when I first picked up this book five and a half years ago, on Jonathan’s insistent recommendation (who knew who I really was, years before I did), was a very different woman to the one sitting here now.
Back then, despite working in the spiritual field for many years already, I was still terrified of my own openness to Spirit and the way it had played havoc with my mental, physical and emotional well-being since I was a child.
Although I related to so much of Jez’s description of his shamanic sickness, I still wasn’t ready to admit to myself what that meant for me and my path.
It took getting to a point where I was being terrorised by hallucinations several times a week, despite (or really because of) trying to keep the door to Spirit slammed shut (or shut to anything other than “Oneness”, which felt safe), before I spoke to a shaman and asked for help, telling her I was scared I was losing my mind.
After that one conversation, I made the first tiny step of intentionally opening to Spirit, pleading “Go gently with me”.
The continual hallucinations stopped and the journey to becoming my medicine began.
It feels apt that when I was commanded by Spirit - yes, commanded, I don’t get subtle suggestions about these things - to find a teacher, of the many shamans I knew, I found myself guided directly back to Jez.
So I sit here now, five years later, reading the book that I now finally understand was an important catalyst of this journey and feeling so much appreciation for everyone and everything that brought me here, supporting, guiding and loving me along the way.
And especially Spirit, who has been more gentle with me than I ever could have dreamed of.
♥️✨🌹
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