Three years ago I took a vow to serve the archetypal Feminine. It felt like a choiceless choice, I had no clear idea then why I was making it or what it would require of me.

It was so misty when I was out on my wander yesterday, I took this photo as I strolled back down the lane to my house, marvelling at how lost in the mist it was despite being so close.

Our work involves helping people to create seemingly miraculous transformations and actualise extraordinary visions, and we’ve spent years walking and unfolding the path of Waking The Wild to make those kinds of mythical results occur predictably.

It takes a great Sage Queen to see, feel and speak from the depths of her heart and soul… I am fortunate enough to call one such as she a client and now soul sister… Elizabeth Lovius, who opened my heart beyond measure with these gifts and words.

I get messages and emails every day asking “How do I…?” in one way or another. Those messages run the gamut of human emotion. And whilst each of them are as unique and precious as snowflakes, and I do what I can to meet them as such… the one thing that would be a balm to all is too simple to speak of. So I don’t.

The people who have decided to join us for Waking The Wild Medicine keep messaging me saying things like…

“Just to say I love you both. Magic is happening thick and fast.”

Some of the transformation that the reader of the ‘Choose your own (real life) adventure book’ that I’m writing is already experiencing… after just over two weeks and only a third of the book!

No, I don’t mean be “greedy”, I suspect if you’re reading this it’s unlikely you will be. I mean: be in your appetite, ask for what you need and desire (especially what your soul desires), order off-menu, metaphorically but literally sometimes too.

Seven years ago when I first became a coach I honestly didn’t have anything resembling a niche, though I suspect the delusions of grandeur baked into the copy on my website said otherwise. Really, I just “helped people” – typically they were people with anxiety, depression, OCD or stress and I helped them to have peace of mind.

Modern life today is all about more, more, more. And so is the natural world. The difference is: nature has death baked right in, whereas death has become such a cultural taboo we’ll do anything to avoid it in almost all its forms (whilst subconsciously seeking it in others).

I’ve been spending a lot of time this week feeling awe and appreciation for my work… it feels strange to call it a business, even though that’s what it is… it’s just that it’s really so much more than that, it’s an embodiment and expression of my very soul.

A question I’m often asked (most recently yesterday regarding Waking The Wild Medicine)… “I feel so drawn to your work but I’m concerned it’ll conflict with my 3Ps/non-dual training – is there a conflict?”

The soul-made YES is often the most frightening YES to say.This is the kind of choice we might need to take to our dreams, to the wild, to prayer… or however we can most clearly hear the voice of Spirit.This is the kind of choice the heart is clear on long before the head is willing to heed it.

My dreams and visions have been intense lately… a ceremonial bonfire in which I was throwing in the names of my identities, powerful spirit animals, walking alone and lonely, wandering Mayan ruins… and the synchronicities showing up have been pure magic.

‘The Knight’ so beautifully illustrates what happens when we guide people down the path of Waking The Wild… they’re liberated from compression, allowing them to stretch their limbs and hear their full voices.

At this point, it seems to me it’s a case of ‘when, not if’ we embrace real magic in our culture… Modern science is slowly catching up with what shamanic traditions have understood for eons (which in turn, most anthropologists obediently papered over until recently).

The myth: The easy part is discovering what your Soul Work is (AKA if you really had a soul purpose, wouldn’t you already know it?).

The reality: For many people this is the hardest part of all. I spent decades searching, knowing I was here for something deeper and more meaningful than running corporate websites (not that I’m knocking that, that might well be someone’s Soul Work, it just wasn’t mine) but couldn’t figure out what the flip it was.

You’ve never really felt like you fit in though you’ve tried your damnedest to do so (hello, Raven trying to be a pigeon).

You’ve struggled with hallucinations, migraines, visions or dissociative episodes (or maybe you’re like me and you can replace that ‘or’ with an ‘and’

“Who does she think she is?” Projections: what they mean about you and them

This picture, a print of Waterhouse’s The Soul of the Rose was a wedding present from my husband 11 years ago, it hangs on our bedroom wall and reminds me daily of the dreamy, poetic and soulful way that I’m devoted to living.

“Who does she think she is?” Projections: what they mean about you and them

I’ll begin this homage to the hidden and often misunderstood precious gold of projections by sharing some of what I’ve heard said about me – either first-hand (after they’d changed their minds about me!) or repeated to me by a person they’d shared them with.