Holders need holding too… At the end of the session with my coach today I said… “We could have just spoken about custard for an hour and it would have been exactly what I needed.” After a particularly intense day of holding others, I felt an unusually strong need to be held too.

I’m often told that I provoke people… to think; to feel; to open; to close; to Fear; to Love. It’s not exactly been an easy path but it’s one I’m growing to love as I see its gifts – the material for liberation it provides for me and others.

Most of our clients come from a background of various forms of spirituality, particularly non-dual and 3P. They’re drawn to us because they feel we are offering something that feels strangely “right” to them at that point in their lives.

I work with a lot of empaths… people with a gift that for most of their life has felt anything but. First of all their gift needs acknowledgement and then the work really begins… loving and cultivating themselves to become who they came here to be.

Three years ago I took a vow to serve the archetypal Feminine. It felt like a choiceless choice, I had no clear idea then why I was making it or what it would require of me.

It was so misty when I was out on my wander yesterday, I took this photo as I strolled back down the lane to my house, marvelling at how lost in the mist it was despite being so close.

Our work involves helping people to create seemingly miraculous transformations and actualise extraordinary visions, and we’ve spent years walking and unfolding the path of Waking The Wild to make those kinds of mythical results occur predictably.

I get messages and emails every day asking “How do I…?” in one way or another. Those messages run the gamut of human emotion. And whilst each of them are as unique and precious as snowflakes, and I do what I can to meet them as such… the one thing that would be a balm to all is too simple to speak of. So I don’t.

The people who have decided to join us for Waking The Wild Medicine keep messaging me saying things like…

“Just to say I love you both. Magic is happening thick and fast.”

Some of the transformation that the reader of the ‘Choose your own (real life) adventure book’ that I’m writing is already experiencing… after just over two weeks and only a third of the book!

No, I don’t mean be “greedy”, I suspect if you’re reading this it’s unlikely you will be. I mean: be in your appetite, ask for what you need and desire (especially what your soul desires), order off-menu, metaphorically but literally sometimes too.

Seven years ago when I first became a coach I honestly didn’t have anything resembling a niche, though I suspect the delusions of grandeur baked into the copy on my website said otherwise. Really, I just “helped people” – typically they were people with anxiety, depression, OCD or stress and I helped them to have peace of mind.

Modern life today is all about more, more, more. And so is the natural world. The difference is: nature has death baked right in, whereas death has become such a cultural taboo we’ll do anything to avoid it in almost all its forms (whilst subconsciously seeking it in others).

I’ve been spending a lot of time this week feeling awe and appreciation for my work… it feels strange to call it a business, even though that’s what it is… it’s just that it’s really so much more than that, it’s an embodiment and expression of my very soul.

A question I’m often asked (most recently yesterday regarding Waking The Wild Medicine)… “I feel so drawn to your work but I’m concerned it’ll conflict with my 3Ps/non-dual training – is there a conflict?”

My dreams and visions have been intense lately… a ceremonial bonfire in which I was throwing in the names of my identities, powerful spirit animals, walking alone and lonely, wandering Mayan ruins… and the synchronicities showing up have been pure magic.

At this point, it seems to me it’s a case of ‘when, not if’ we embrace real magic in our culture… Modern science is slowly catching up with what shamanic traditions have understood for eons (which in turn, most anthropologists obediently papered over until recently).

The myth: The easy part is discovering what your Soul Work is (AKA if you really had a soul purpose, wouldn’t you already know it?).

The reality: For many people this is the hardest part of all. I spent decades searching, knowing I was here for something deeper and more meaningful than running corporate websites (not that I’m knocking that, that might well be someone’s Soul Work, it just wasn’t mine) but couldn’t figure out what the flip it was.

You’ve never really felt like you fit in though you’ve tried your damnedest to do so (hello, Raven trying to be a pigeon).

You’ve struggled with hallucinations, migraines, visions or dissociative episodes (or maybe you’re like me and you can replace that ‘or’ with an ‘and’

“Who does she think she is?” Projections: what they mean about you and them

This picture, a print of Waterhouse’s The Soul of the Rose was a wedding present from my husband 11 years ago, it hangs on our bedroom wall and reminds me daily of the dreamy, poetic and soulful way that I’m devoted to living.