By Lian Brook-Tyler

Your arrival was

heralded in words like

sanitary, applicators, cramps.

You seemed functional,

I felt nothing much at all.

When you came,

the battle was a lonely one,

with a tampon stubbornly stuck.

You seemed like the enemy,

I felt scared and small.

I’m writing this sitting in my fave Thai restaurant, glowing with joy. 🥰There’s something about my Wednesday afternoons off that absolutely THRILLS me… way beyond the amazing Thai feast, massages, choosing lovely treats for the family, wandering in the wild, and sitting in the garden reading (though admittedly, they are all glorious!)

’m back to Kung Fu for the first time in over 6 months… My children were just asking me why despite my many years of obsessive training in martial arts, I never formally competed.

“Clowns to the left of me! Jokers to the right! Here I am stuck in the middle with you.”

A sneak peek into what’s going down in Waking The Wild Medicine… “The most intense conflicts, if overcome, leave behind a sense of security and calm that is not easily disturbed” ~ Carl Jung

To create a business, a real business – the beautiful, fantastical, edgy af, playful and love-fuelled one that your soul is inconveniently calling you to – takes time. Time to hear your soul’s call, time to find the courage to heed it and then a lot more time than you believe at the start that you can or will give it before it ‘works’.

That’s one of the things I regularly say to our clients. I’m asking how they’ll celebrate an expansion in their being, reaching a milestone in their business, or taking especially challenging aligned action.

This week I saw a lion and a wolf in the bark of my special oak tree. Both are symbolic animals for me and seeing them together in this way was the answer to a deep question I’ve been living into. Is there *really* a lion and a wolf depicted here?

I’ve been lying in bed looking through old photos with the children. The timing is interesting because this month in Waking The Wild Medicine we’ve been entering the crucible of Story (especially the telling of the story of our wounds and gifts… and telling them from Sovereignty), so my younger self has already been more in my awareness than usual.

“The curious paradox is that when I accept myself just as I am, then I can change.”

~ Carl Rogers

The *only* reason I meditate is because I’m devoted to the Magical Path. Me + meditation before now=Meh. And yet, one way or another, meditation is a requirement of the path I’m devoted to, so meditate I do. Devotion can be *that* powerful, but in my view, any talk of devotion requires some small print.

For most of my life I believed that the Feminine was weak, spoilt, illogical, manipulative, selfish, inconvenient, and did I say weak? But the more I heal and integrate my relationship to the Feminine, the more I see who I really am and where my true power lies.

It’s taken a very long time to love this woman: how she moves, how she thinks, how she speaks, how she feels, how she creates, and finally… how she looks. There’s a bazillion different reasons *not* to love ourselves – Fear can make every one of them compelling, convincing and reasonable.

“The privilege of a lifetime is to become who you truly are.” – Carl Gustav Jung

For me, that privilege means becoming a vessel for the Divine Feminine, Love, Magic and Beauty to pour through into the world… even and especially when it seems unwelcome, idealistic, fantastical, impractical and as provocative as Hell (and Heaven).

The majority of us in this crazy modern world are living as fragments of ourselves. Slaves to constant doing and busyness in the name of progress, productivity, and ideas of success. What if the fast paced modern world is a collective shadow of hiding our power and full expression?

Holders need holding too… At the end of the session with my coach today I said… “We could have just spoken about custard for an hour and it would have been exactly what I needed.” After a particularly intense day of holding others, I felt an unusually strong need to be held too.

I’m often told that I provoke people… to think; to feel; to open; to close; to Fear; to Love. It’s not exactly been an easy path but it’s one I’m growing to love as I see its gifts – the material for liberation it provides for me and others.

Most of our clients come from a background of various forms of spirituality, particularly non-dual and 3P. They’re drawn to us because they feel we are offering something that feels strangely “right” to them at that point in their lives.

I work with a lot of empaths… people with a gift that for most of their life has felt anything but. First of all their gift needs acknowledgement and then the work really begins… loving and cultivating themselves to become who they came here to be.

Three years ago I took a vow to serve the archetypal Feminine. It felt like a choiceless choice, I had no clear idea then why I was making it or what it would require of me.